Let it Roll - by secondhand serenade

and i'm watching you and i'm waiting
for the perfect time to start
participating and you signal me to stay
but i open my mouth any way

but its over we're gonners
its out of our control
and if there's one thing that i know
its that its best to let it roll
so lets just let it roll

your hazel eyes paralyze my senses
cut me down to size defenseless
i'm defenseless
and i know its late but im waiting
for the moment that i've been anticipating
and i signal you to go where it will take us i don't know

but its over we're gonners
its out of our control
and if there's one thing that i know
its that its best to let it roll
so lets just let it roll

standing on the edge...

so i'm at a crossroads in my young career...
there are two questions that have simultaneously struck fear and inspiration into my heart since i was a mere child -
"what do you want to be when you grow up?"
"what are you going to do after graduation?"

And i think that I am rapidly coming to that point where i've got to make some decisions that will really lead me in the direction that will answer both of those questions...

i'll keep you posted.

a proust questionnaire

i am unashamedly stealing this from someone else ;-)

What is your favorite virtue?
moderation in all things;

What qualities do you value most in a woman?
intelligence, humor, honesty/openness, ambition, sincerity, passion, appreciation for the little things

What do you appreciate most about your friends?
(1) the incredible wealth and diversity of knowledge, humor, and support that each one brings/ (2) from my closest friends, their ability to both challenge and encourage me about the qualities and issues that are most important...

What is your chief characterisitic?
paradoxically observant and spacey...

What is your greatest fault?
hmmm. oh yeah. how about the fact that i over analyze EVERYTHING? like this questionnaire for example.

What is your favorite occupation?
its a tie between reading books about the middle east while sitting on MARTA, and floating along in a lake by myself thinking about nothing...

What is your idea of happiness?
any combination of great music and great conversation.

What is your idea of misery?
second-guessing every major decision i make. wait. i think i already do that...

If not yourself, who would you be?
a punk rock drummer. you think i'm kidding don't you?

Where would you like to live?
somewhere near: mountains and a lake.

What are your favorite color and flower?
my wardrobe pretty much covers the spectrum of blue. so i'll go with that.
as for the flower--- can i use my allergies as a legit excuse to not answer that question?

Who are your favorite prose authors?
HAHA.

Who are your favorite poets?
modern: T.S. Eliot - read the Hollowmen! e.e. cummings too.
oldies but goodies: Shakespeare, Rossetti... depends on my mood.

Who are your favorite heroes/heroines in fiction?
(betraying my incredible nerdiness) ... can i say Aragorn?

Who are your favorite heroes/heroines in real life?
My Mom.

What are your favorite names?
...

What is your favorite food and drink?
cheeeeese. cheese. oh did i mention cheeeese? if i have to choose an actual meal- italian food, and drink - good ole fashioned cream soda.

What do you hate the most?
extremism, ignorance, egoism

What military event do you admire the most?
Normandy; Hannibal getting to the gates of Rome;

What reform do you admire the most?
that martin luther dude...

What natural talent do you wish you were gifted with?
singing

How do you wish to die?
quietly... provided i live a noisy life...

What is your present state of mind?
tired / rest less / trying to stablize

For what fault have you the most toleration?
depends.

What is your favorite motto?
do justice, love mercy, walk humbly with your God.

hard to believe i haven't added anything since November... although i feel entirely justified with the ridiculous work schedule i've had since then...
so i'm finally back to a "normal life" now that session is over... and i cant shake the feeling that i've been wandering in the wilderness for years and am trying to adjust back to civilization....